It’s been awhile since I’ve wrote anything. Woopsie! Been busy since the last post. It’s Sunday afternoon and trying to find something to do. I see a PRINT magazine laying inside my book bag. It’s the 31st Regional Annual Design series and I had to open it up and look inside. As I’m going through pages after pages, my heart just glow with desire wanting to design something like it is in the magazine. I’ve always been passionate about design and never have until I recently moved into a new state the last couple of months. Seattle is not really a graphic design based but more of a web based. I moved here to be with my significant other. It has been tough and took awhile for me to stay strong here without shattering into pieces. Ever since I’ve graduated from school, I had my old job where I get to design logos and such but now here, I’ve been working at Sephora part time so it’s been different. It’s so hard to find a decent graphic design job here but I never gave up.
About a month ago, I recently got hired to be a graphic designer for this guy who does own his own marketing firm (mostly for PowerPoint) and want me to work for him part time. Not only that, after seasonal with Sephora, they want me to officially be a permanent cast in their staff which is freakin’ awesome! So technically, I have a full time job? I get to be around make-up and I get to design at home, what more can you ask right? It is exactly what I want but after going through pages of PRINT, my heart was set on being a graphic designer and I know that’s what I want to do. I’m losing oodles of noodles inspirations and what makes me happy the most. I feel like I’m only inspired when I’m in school and after that, I don’t know where it went. Yes I have a part time as a graphic designer but the job is not truly what I want. I want to work in a design firm/agency full time that deals with branding, identity, and print media. That’s my bread and butter but I get turned down left and right. I’ve sent thousands of resumes and portfolios since August of last year and just last month, someone answered my prayers but it was only for a part time gig. I took the job because I don’t give up and it’s the best I can do right now.
I know in my heart, I will never give up on my dreams and hope that I get a full time gig in a design firm/agency that truly understands what graphic design is all about to where I don’t even have to lecture people what I know best. I may only be twenty-five (April of this year) but I have goals and dreams that I would love to accomplished before I’m all old and wrinkly. I still want to travel and see the world before I even have kids. I have to live every moment I can and not just waste every breath I take. Oh and let me tell you, I’m not really a positive person… oh no I’m not. My boyfriend always try to get me to be positive every single day and it’s really hard. Due to the fact I left my only home (in California), leaving my friends and family, the sunshine, the good weather, and in a house that has everything to be with a guy. Okay, off subject… as you can see, positivity is quite hard to have naturally when all you can do is try to live your life a little. But sometimes I feel like I’m losing it not knowing when will I get the career of my dreams? I know I can’t give up and there’s people who worked in this type of business for years and years until they have a steady job that they enjoy.
I will try and never give up! So good luck to me!